Tag: #multiplesclerosis

Day 1 of Mel Wells 7 day self love challenge

Ok so, its the first day of the #7daysofselflove with Mel Wells 

Today’s challenge is to share one thing that you love about yourself!
Before my MS diagnosis, I was in a really confident state of mind and felt comfortable saying “I love every part of my being”

Since then I’ve always felt uncomfortable saying I love any part of myself other than my smile and my soul! 
I understand that it’s okay to have self appreciation and self love, as I have been in that place before, but i find it hard now, 7 years later, to accept the change in myself, in my figure. 
The other hard thing for me today is to share this about myself so publicly!

I hate the thought of anyone feeling sad for me, so things like this I would rather keep between myself and close friends! 

*this is not a pity post, this is my journey to self love*
I’m always up for a challenge though, to prove to myself that I’m working on being a better version of myself! 
The other thing you will notice is there is no picture of me, just my very raw, messy handwriting! 

The picture is from one of my actions I had to do for my health coach session with Louise.

‘Write a letter from your future self’ 

I hope it will all make sense when you read it/if you can read it! 
I didn’t want to re-write it and pretty it up because, that just wouldn’t be the right thing to do!


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Picture is my own, words are my own

 

​Illuminated soul. 

This resonates! 
*Meme shared via Pinterest, words below are my own*
This journey is taking me down some interesting paths, ones that I wouldn’t have had the courage to walk before! My eyes have been opened, its like I can see in the dark, I can see where the monsters hide! 
I can see you!
I’m not afraid anymore, I see my way by my own light! Getting ready to spread my wings to show you all where your monsters hide! 
I know all these changes in me is because of yoga! Its not just the physical, its the spiritual! 

MS effecting my speech…

​Another referral due to my MS! 

Its crazy how much of ‘you’ MS affects! 

My voice hasn’t sounded the same for around 4 years! 

Nothing major, I just constantly sound as though I have a cold! 
The most annoying thing now is the amount of times I get asked to repeat myself! 

I can’t tell what volume I should be using so can occasionally speak very loud!

The worst is when my voice becomes a whisper and I slurr my words! 

All because MS has affected my swallow! 

When I used to get asked if my swallow was okay at routine check ups, I always thought the consultant meant ‘do I choke often’ 

Answer: “occasionally”
I never linked the question to the problems I have with my voice! And yet it makes total sense! 

Doh!!! 👅😝 

Making a down day happier…

​Having a pretty shitty day today tbh, so fatigued its unreal! Every day lately seems like I have to push myself harder, just to move my body and that’s without actually thinking about what I want my body to do! That takes even more effort! Long gone are those days that I can do things without thinking!
Right now, MS sucks but guess what, I was looking through my pictures on my phone, to find something that reflects my current mood…
That’s when I saw this photo and everything changed! 

This photo was taken last Sunday when I yes me, drove the furthest I have ever driven (90 miles to South Yorkshire) to see my MS sister & the rest of our faaaamily! Of course I had my DebbieRahRah as SatDeb & navigator. What makes me feel more proud, was that I drove without feeling nervous!
This beautiful lady is my Kindred Spirit, she has helped me through my MS more than she’ll take credit for! I only need to see her smiley face and my mood lifts! 

Thank you Sarah Hickman for making my day cheerier! 

(And I know exactly what she’s saying when she reads this… Either “oh behave” or “stoppppp”)

🙊😂💋💖💞
 

Still a rock star!

​Just when I convince myself, doing this is allowed, its OK to let myself rest. 

I then see not just one medical appointment, but two, both today, my rest day! 

That’s what rest days are for isn’t it!?? 

Appointments, because they’re so much fun! 😜 

Shared via Pinterest

 

​”Stronger than your average chick”

​”Stronger than your average chick”

Oh yes i am! Absolutely loved Body Pump tonight with @keza_h! What an awesome instructor Kerry is! I never thought i would be able to do this class & not only can i do it but tonight i increased my weights again! 
Feeling proud! 

Photo shared from Pinterest

Body image struggles

​Sometimes you just gotta get down on your mat! 
My head, my thoughts are in a funny place at the moment, I’m doing my best to stay with my Yoga but its so hard! 
I’m having a lot of body image problems, for instance I wanted to see how I am with my downward-facing dog (Adho Mukha Shvanasana) progress, so did a video, really pleased with the left side of this picture but extremely dislike the right! (Hate is a strong word but…) And its not because I can’t straighten my legs or flatten my feet. 
I know why I’ve started feeling like this again. That’s part of the battle when you don’t know why your thoughts have changed so much after doing so well.
A bump in my road, well, more than a bump, loosing part of our family has literally took me backwards on my ‘better mind journey’ 
I’ll trust this journey for as long as I’m on it because I have never felt so determined!

I am creating the best version of myself

​An incredible, emotional & insightful Yoga class today with my Guru-Lou @louiseavilesyoga 

Thank you! Things are making so much more sense after our chat!

MeSsy days

​My post from earlier today showing the world of Facebook how heat effects me

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I apologise in advance if you see me or talk to me today, i have my coolest clothes on therefore look like a sack, my hair is a mess, can’t be bothered with make up and I’m just generally slow! 

This is what we refer to as a MeSsy day! 😜

No filters! Can’t you tell!?