Staying true to myself!

This past 18 months, I have been working really hard, on becoming my true authentic self. 
I am so much happier in my life now, except when it comes to handling my chronic pain levels!
I don’t like to be truthful about this part of me because I don’t want people to ever think I am after a pity party, I’m not! 

I don’t want people to be sad for me! 


But how can I be authentic if this is a part of me that I don’t share completely! 

So here goes… I have quite honestly never felt pain like this coming from my sacroiliac joint, hips, spine, legs, piriformis muscle and my feet! 

Tonight I broke! I couldn’t stop the tears! 

I am quiet certain this isn’t MS, maybe it is part of my fibromyalgia, maybe its just an old injury that’s never been looked into properly? 

Just like in my health coaching programme I did, maybe this is somewhere that has never been approached completely?
In yoga, they say we hold alot of our emotion in different areas of our bodies. Ok, some of you must have heard of stress being held in your shoulders? Well, that’s exactly what I’m talking about! 

What if the manifestation of chronic pain is  being caused by an unresolved emotional issue?

It has been said that there is a distinct connection between emotions and injuries.

A fall from being pushed in a malicious way will manifest in the body differently than a fall from an accidental trip on a very peaceful, carefree day.
Doesn’t that make you think! 

What ever it is, I’d like it fixed & my life back now… Pain free!

Yoga is always the answer!

Couldn’t get to my weights class tonight & is looking as though that will be a rare occurrence due to my back problems.
So instead, there was Yoga!… Just what I needed! Don’t know where I got the energy from but I had the will! Only managed 30mins and that’s ok! The fact that I did & I feel good now is what its about! 
Yoga is the answer to everything!

💁
I really do miss my weights classes with the amazing @keza_h 😞

Photo is my own as are the words written!

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Its ok to let others in

If giving yourself a pep talk doesn’t do the job, that’s what your #support system is for! These come in the way of #family, #friends, #yoga #teachers, #health #coaches, etc, etc!

Always remember, its ok to reach out! Its ok to let others in! 

Thank you Louise Yoga 

💚💚💚

Meme shared from Instagram, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own