Mentally accepting my physical limits!

Worked hard today & I don’t mean physically!

Today has been more about mentally accepting my physical limits & not ignoring my body, when she tells me it’s time to stop. When she screams because she’s getting weak & hurting. 

Its hard to accept that your body can’t do the things it used to do. It’s also hard to remember not to get angry at myself!

The good news… today I managed it! 

Today was a great day so I’m enjoying a Gin & Ginger Ale! Cheers! 😉 

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My body is calling out for yoga!

Alarm set for my self practice yoga in the morning, haven’t done any thing for a while. Just haven’t had the mojo for it, listening to my body, and she’s telling me she’s ready for the mat tomorrow. That’s if she wakes up in time! Maybe, maybe not, either way is good!! 

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Picture is my own with a inspirational quote by Alan Alda, words are my own

Tattooing 27/4/17

This week is MS awareness week in the UK, something I am very aware of everyday as you can imagine! 
MS has changed my life! I learn new things about my-self every day because of it. Some things I’m not keen on which is ok because at least I can spend time reflecting on the things I don’t like, as long as I’m not spending too much time on one thing because then it becomes unhealthy! 
Its taken me along time to get to this point of acceptance, there is no end point to it though, something people may not know is how much MS can change from day to day, meaning everyday we may have to adapt and accept something new or even the return of an old symptom! 

Our lives are never boring! 
Yesterday was an amazing day! A day that I had been planning and working on for a long time! 

Yesterday I took myself into the city of Coventry, its only just over 10 miles away, but for someone with extreme anxiety, this is an amazing thing to do! 
I went to see this beautiful, kind & gentle soul, Holly Marie. So she could get creative and mark me with a beautiful image, that would forever remind me of what an incredible journey I am on. 

The point I am at in my life now, feels so right! I feel as though, with the guidance of so many over the last 7 years (and more, even before my MS) I have started To unveil the real me and like a Lotus flower, I am blossoming!
What an epic LifeJourney! 

Thank you for treating me so well yesterday Holly and I’ll see you in 2 weeks for my next symbolic image! 

Picture is my own, as are words. Permission to use image of tattooist was granted 27/4/17

Tattooing 27/4/17

This week is MS awareness week in the UK, something I am very aware of everyday as you can imagine! 
MS has changed my life! I learn new things about my-self every day because of it. Some things I’m not keen on which is ok because at least I can spend time reflecting on the things I don’t like, as long as I’m not spending too much time on one thing because then it becomes unhealthy! 
Its taken me along time to get to this point of acceptance, there is no end point to it though, something people may not know is how much MS can change from day to day, meaning everyday we may have to adapt and accept something new or even the return of an old symptom! 

Our lives are never boring! 
Yesterday was an amazing day! A day that I had been planning and working on for a long time! 

Yesterday I took myself into the city of Coventry, its only just over 10 miles away, but for someone with extreme anxiety, this is an amazing thing to do! 
I went to see this beautiful, kind & gentle soul, Holly Marie. So she could get creative and mark me with a beautiful image, that would forever remind me of what an incredible journey I am on. 

The point I am at in my life now, feels so right! I feel as though, with the guidance of so many over the last 7 years (and more, even before my MS) I have started To unveil the real me and like a Lotus flower, I am blossoming!
What an epic LifeJourney! 

Thank you for treating me so well yesterday Holly and I’ll see you in 2 weeks for my next symbolic image! 

Picture is my own, as are words. Permission to use image of tattooist was granted 27/4/17

How do I stay positive?

“When people ask me why am I so positive, I simply reply why not?” – Vix Edwards

  • I try to lift weights once a week
  • I try to practice Pilates 3 times a week
  • I try to practice Yoga almost everyday

I also have ms every single day but i don’t have to try with that one!
MS isn’t easy, there’s something different every day, but this doesn’t stop me living my life the fullest that I can!
I do my best to stay positive, which is where my exercise comes into play. 

Negativity is soul draining and exceptionally hard for me to get out of when it has me! I should imagine this is the same for anyone that has ever had a low mood day!
Imagine a tree, at the top of it is where the positivity is & this is where I aim to start my day! 

Lets say I wake up and its a beautiful day, sun shining, birds are singing, and I’m at the highest point of my positivity.

I sit up in bed and as I move my legs, my right leg is a little stiff. Hmm, that’s ok, I can handle that, except for when I start to walk out of the bedroom and I have to drag my leg, this knocks me down in my positivity.

So now, I’m no longer at the top of the tree. Now I’m on the branch below where I started, but thats ok, because I was at the top when I started my day, I am still closer to being at my most positive than my most negative & because I try to always see the positive in things, I should be able to get back to the top fairly quickly.
Remember though, I said this isn’t easy! Sometimes we come across things in life that will test us, sometimes we think we are going to break and never be the same person ever again. I’ve been there! Not just with my health, so I know how hard positivity can be, I’m not the same person, no, I use these experience’s as lessons and I grow from them!

When there’s only 2 choice’s, positivity & negaticity, I know which one I’d rather make! 

“Train your mind to see the good in everything. Positivity is a choice. The happiness of your life depends on your thoughts.” – Marcandangel 

Photo is by myself as are the words!

Yoga workshop #2

Excited & anxious all at the same time! This morning I am off to my 2nd Yoga workshop, this time it’s with another of my beautiful Yoga teachers, Denise – @smallworldyogi! 
I really am amazing myself with how far I’ve come on this journey, not just my Yoga journey but my life journey! Thanks to my yoga I am more open to learning new things about myself, my confidence to travel further and go to new places on my own has to be one of the most noticeable things for me! I would never have even dreamt of doing this a year ago! 
From reading that, you might be wondering “travel further, where is she going for this workshop?”

Well, its only just over 6 miles away but its an area I’m not used to driving to and last time me & my yoga bestie attempted to go to Denise’s class, we got lost! 

So, because of that, and because I’ll be on my own, I’ve given myself added pressure and anxiety where it isn’t needed! 

I could ask for my DebbieRahRah to take me but this is something I have to do and I can do it! 
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My agony weekend *Monday*

Wifey has been such a star all weekend, giving me the strength and courage to eat! 

Look at what she made me today, an open top chicken salad sandwich, with gluten free bread! 
I know it may sound odd that she’s giving me strength and courage to eat, but when you’ve been in as much pain when ur stomach is trying to digest food, sometimes it seems easier to not eat! 
That’s what happened to me 15 years ago! The exact same symptoms, except I didn’t eat for 6 weeks? I was so shocked when they told me I had a stomach ulcer, even though test results were in conclusive! 
I’m still not right but at least I’m eating & its good food! 

I’m not in as much pain as I was either! That’s the best part for me! 

Going to carry on taking it easy, unfortunately that means I haven’t had my endorphin fix since Friday, but I’ll get over it! 
I do still plan on a nice Chi Yoga class on Wednesday then resting again! 

Onwards and Upwards! I have got this, I may not have control over my health but I have control over how I handle it! 
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