So, here we are, December! β„β›„

Such a lovey time of the year, call me crazy but I always loved the hustle and bustle of December!

That feeling when you’ve queued in the shops on black Friday πŸ›, you trawled the internet for the best deal on cyber Monday πŸ’», when you can’t decide whether to treat yourself to a fresh christmas tree πŸŽ„ and then like every year – decide that you could actually spend that money on the food instead 🍽 and you get the artificial tree out of the loft. 
Next, you sit for an hour or more untangling the lights πŸ’‘ for the tree! 

Static shocks ⚑️whenever you touch anything after handling all the tinsel, that you eventually threw on your tree πŸŽ„

Trying not to get stressed 😠 when you end up sticking all your fingers together, as you bravely start wrapping the presents ready🎁 for Santa’s πŸŽ… elves to collect. 

You’ve made it this far with your sanity intact, keep it that way just a little longer!
Lets skip through any more dramas that may try to own you and fast forward to sitting with the family πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘§β€πŸ‘¦, surrounded by all that wrapping paper and invisible sticky tape that got you so stressed 😑. Now it lies on the floor, torn and screwed up! You got your own back on it! You won that war! πŸ’ͺ
Laughter and love πŸ’— all around you as you sit at the table with your loved ones, a glass of your favourite beverage in your hand 🍷 and the bottle 🍾 at your side! Take a breath and feel proud! πŸ‘Œ
Enjoy this time, don’t let the madness of this month ruin the best time that is still to come!
Happy December everyone! 

Vix πŸ™πŸ’š

Laughter not tears

Didn’t want to go out, but I had to! 

Was comfy in my pyjamas, but had to go to the chemist.
I made the effort, I had a wash, got dressed, brushed my teeth, brushed my hair, attempted to put socks & shoes on, just about managed! 
Drove past the chemist, open, good! 

Parked the car, stumbled out of car, walked around the corner…….
THE SHUTTER HAD JUST LOWERED, THEY WERE CLOSED FOR LUNCH! AN HOUR!
Oh how I laughed! 

And returned an hour later! 

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Sinusitis again!Β 

I don’t know about other MSrs, but I always know when I have an infection! 
Balance is terrible & my vision started to blur! 

I’m so sensitive to any changes to my ‘normal every day MS symptoms’ 
Thank you sinusitis I get to have some Antibiotics, which apparently I had before in 2009! Just hope I don’t react to them! 

Picture is my own, as are the words

Todays flare comes from my MS, in the form of TREMORS!Β 

Shake it baby! 

My body has an internal tremor today and my head is going for it too! 

Not the nicest but a good reason to be a sofa surfer! 

Something I always found hard to do, but not anymore! 

The trick is, listening to your body, a way that my body tells me it needs rest, is a flare of my symptoms. 

Today’s flare is from my MS and I have Tremors! 

Yesterday it was quite possibly my Fibromyalgia with extreme pain (hard for me to tell fibro pain from MS pain)
I understand everyone leads busy lives in different ways, and it is extremely hard for people to find the time to just stop, to rest, to breathe. 

BUT, we have one body for our lifetime!
Preach over! πŸ™ŠπŸ‘ŒπŸ’― 

‘For Foot Sake’ saga continues!…

Other than renewing my medication, that trip to the GP today was a complete waste of time! Just as it was 2 weeks ago! 

All praise to the NHS, but seriously! 😑
So the ‘For foot sake’ saga continues… GP (not my usual – neither was it today) wrote a letter 2 weeks ago to Rheumatology to expedite my appointment for my foot/back results that I have on 10th November (doesn’t seem far away but believe me, it did back in August!) He sent the letter, to no avail! I’ve been calling every day and not a single cancellation! 

I totally get it, there are others in the same situation as me, but, come on! 

Staying true to myself!

This past 18 months, I have been working really hard, on becoming my true authentic self. 
I am so much happier in my life now, except when it comes to handling my chronic pain levels!
I don’t like to be truthful about this part of me because I don’t want people to ever think I am after a pity party, I’m not! 

I don’t want people to be sad for me! 


But how can I be authentic if this is a part of me that I don’t share completely! 

So here goes… I have quite honestly never felt pain like this coming from my sacroiliac joint, hips, spine, legs, piriformis muscle and my feet! 

Tonight I broke! I couldn’t stop the tears! 

I am quiet certain this isn’t MS, maybe it is part of my fibromyalgia, maybe its just an old injury that’s never been looked into properly? 

Just like in my health coaching programme I did, maybe this is somewhere that has never been approached completely?
In yoga, they say we hold alot of our emotion in different areas of our bodies. Ok, some of you must have heard of stress being held in your shoulders? Well, that’s exactly what I’m talking about! 

What if the manifestation of chronic pain is  being caused by an unresolved emotional issue?

It has been said that there is a distinct connection between emotions and injuries.

A fall from being pushed in a malicious way will manifest in the body differently than a fall from an accidental trip on a very peaceful, carefree day.
Doesn’t that make you think! 

What ever it is, I’d like it fixed & my life back now… Pain free!

Winning at life!

Thursday treat after aquafit! 
Proud that I come and do this on my own! 
Seems silly that I stopped coming because the Leisure Centre moved! I had convinced myself that, because I don’t know Hinckley, I wouldn’t be able to find its new location & I’d get lost! Even though it’s not far at all from its previous location! 
I had the offer to come with my ‘other mummy’ Crispie aka ChristineRobinson! 

Again though, I let my anxiety win! This time, because the Centre was new, I wouldn’t know where things were & would get more tired! 
These are the stories I would tell myself! That is of course, until I took control of my anxiety! 
Since then, I’ve done so many things by myself that I was just to anxious to do before.
They may not seen much to some, but some of the things include something like, just sitting in a cafe on your own! – Always to anxious! Now, for the third time, I think I’ve got the hang of it!
Another major hurdle was 2 weeks ago, when I accepted how much easier it would be to use the disabled, (some may prefer ‘less-abled’) changing room, after the aquafit class. 
Taking control of my anxiety,

Embracing the changes

And generally winning at life! 

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