Let that shit go!

​DebbieRahRah this morning “lets go to the seaside & on the way back we’ll call in and show Walter to Mom & Daddy David” 

I let out a shocked “Meh?!?!?” Unfortunately that’s my anxiety getting the better of me!

11am we were in the car, 2 & half hours later we were there! The was shining on us, 29°c, a nice cool breeze and yet the sea was like a mill pond! 

Windbreaks erected across the shingly beach in true British style! 

As we approached the slight sloping path down to the beach, I realised just HOW many people there were down there! 

Just breathe Vicky, just breathe! Its only people! I told myself! But what if people stare at me because I have a walking stick? What if I walk funny because of the sand? What if I fall? What if I get sunburnt? What if the heat effects my MS? What if what if what if!!!

Did it matter? Really? Chances were most people would be sunbathing, reading or shouting at their children! So why would they care about 1 person that just happens to have walking aid! I’m sure I wouldn’t be the first they’d seen in their life! 

Walking funny??? Everyone walks funny on the beach when the sand moves beneath your feet! 

If you fall over just get back up, brush yourself off and carry on… If anything, you’ll give someone a giggle, if they notice! 

Sunburn? You’ve got suncream, use it! 

Heat? Deal with it!
Do you see, if I’d have let the anxiety win, I wouldn’t have had such a wonderful day! I wouldn’t have found the strength to walk to the shore, I wouldn’t have paddled in the pools on the way to the sea, I wouldn’t have got a sun kissed nose or sandy toes, I wouldn’t have seen our little boys first paddle in the sea & his reaction when he first went on the sand and started to jump around like a spring lamb!
The inlaws were over the moon with their surprise visit & so happy to meet Walter who they just adore! Jaxon is still their number one boy though! Was nice to hear Debs mum say ‘Mummy Vicky’ as well!… Little does she know! 

Liberated

​So unbelievably proud of myself even though my daddy will tell me off, my error forgetting my prescription for my fatigue meds on Monday, therefore I have to fix it, right!?
Drove myself to the hospital to cash in my prescription for some drugs! 
Oh yeah and I’m makeup-less as I’m  having an MRI later (different hospital) and I just couldn’t be bothered! 

​”Stronger than your average chick”

​”Stronger than your average chick”

Oh yes i am! Absolutely loved Body Pump tonight with @keza_h! What an awesome instructor Kerry is! I never thought i would be able to do this class & not only can i do it but tonight i increased my weights again! 
Feeling proud! 

Photo shared from Pinterest

Body image struggles

​Sometimes you just gotta get down on your mat! 
My head, my thoughts are in a funny place at the moment, I’m doing my best to stay with my Yoga but its so hard! 
I’m having a lot of body image problems, for instance I wanted to see how I am with my downward-facing dog (Adho Mukha Shvanasana) progress, so did a video, really pleased with the left side of this picture but extremely dislike the right! (Hate is a strong word but…) And its not because I can’t straighten my legs or flatten my feet. 
I know why I’ve started feeling like this again. That’s part of the battle when you don’t know why your thoughts have changed so much after doing so well.
A bump in my road, well, more than a bump, loosing part of our family has literally took me backwards on my ‘better mind journey’ 
I’ll trust this journey for as long as I’m on it because I have never felt so determined!

I am creating the best version of myself

​An incredible, emotional & insightful Yoga class today with my Guru-Lou @louiseavilesyoga 

Thank you! Things are making so much more sense after our chat!

I’m back!

​Another beautiful day, I’m up, medicated, showered, dressed AND today not only do i have make up on but I’m going out! 

Yes, I’m ready to face the world, ready to look life in the face & say move over bitch I’m coming through!

I’m back & I’m on it! 👊💥

#cantkeepmedown

Invest in rest

​Just took me 30 minutes to walk a 5 minute stroll! 

I know, I’m crazy doing that in this heat! 

Lesson learnt & I shall be cancelling my exercise class tonight! 

Feeling proud  because of how positive I’m staying when feeling cacky in this heat & having to cancel classes! 

I’d rather feel like rubbish now than make it 100 times worse if I tried to exercise in it! 😉   

Bring on the day

​Medicated, showered & ready for life by 9am!

Melting, dripping, generally fcked & sitting in front of the noisiest fan by 10am! 

Yey! Bring on the day! Just don’t expect much from me today! 

Heata maker me wanna sleepa

​Soooooo sleepy! 

I find it so odd how some people’s MS likes dry heat, helping with their pain levels & then there’s some whom like me, it makes their pain worse! 

Humidity has to be the worst for all MS’rs! I’ve never met an MSr who likes humidity! 

For too long i haven’t been able to visit my friend @emilytexasbaran in her (was then) new home in Texas because of the humidity there! 

Now she has moved to Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania I’m going to have to start saving hard for flight tickets! #notsohumidthere

Tooooooo hot man!

MeSsy days

​My post from earlier today showing the world of Facebook how heat effects me

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I apologise in advance if you see me or talk to me today, i have my coolest clothes on therefore look like a sack, my hair is a mess, can’t be bothered with make up and I’m just generally slow! 

This is what we refer to as a MeSsy day! 😜

No filters! Can’t you tell!?