Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

I just want to love what I do!

There’s a reason why I’m so keen to get fitter! 

Feeling pissed off that my body won’t let me! 

How can I get on and enjoy my hobbies, aka yoga, Pilates, weights, when its so physically hard to move my body! 

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How do I stay positive?

“When people ask me why am I so positive, I simply reply why not?” – Vix Edwards

  • I try to lift weights once a week
  • I try to practice Pilates 3 times a week
  • I try to practice Yoga almost everyday

I also have ms every single day but i don’t have to try with that one!
MS isn’t easy, there’s something different every day, but this doesn’t stop me living my life the fullest that I can!
I do my best to stay positive, which is where my exercise comes into play. 

Negativity is soul draining and exceptionally hard for me to get out of when it has me! I should imagine this is the same for anyone that has ever had a low mood day!
Imagine a tree, at the top of it is where the positivity is & this is where I aim to start my day! 

Lets say I wake up and its a beautiful day, sun shining, birds are singing, and I’m at the highest point of my positivity.

I sit up in bed and as I move my legs, my right leg is a little stiff. Hmm, that’s ok, I can handle that, except for when I start to walk out of the bedroom and I have to drag my leg, this knocks me down in my positivity.

So now, I’m no longer at the top of the tree. Now I’m on the branch below where I started, but thats ok, because I was at the top when I started my day, I am still closer to being at my most positive than my most negative & because I try to always see the positive in things, I should be able to get back to the top fairly quickly.
Remember though, I said this isn’t easy! Sometimes we come across things in life that will test us, sometimes we think we are going to break and never be the same person ever again. I’ve been there! Not just with my health, so I know how hard positivity can be, I’m not the same person, no, I use these experience’s as lessons and I grow from them!

When there’s only 2 choice’s, positivity & negaticity, I know which one I’d rather make! 

“Train your mind to see the good in everything. Positivity is a choice. The happiness of your life depends on your thoughts.” – Marcandangel 

Photo is by myself as are the words!

+jLooking good girly!

Had a really good short weights & yoga home workout today, but the pain is so real! 
Trying so hard to focus on the present and not the past! 

This journey is for now, I wasn’t ready to be on it years ago!
Positive note: when I watched the video back for the first time in a long time, I thought to myself “damn, you look GOOD!” 

Yasss! Health coach high! πŸ’š 

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