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Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

I just want to love what I do!

There’s a reason why I’m so keen to get fitter! 

Feeling pissed off that my body won’t let me! 

How can I get on and enjoy my hobbies, aka yoga, Pilates, weights, when its so physically hard to move my body! 

Meme shared via pinterest, words are my own

Happiness is…

A moment in the garden tidying & now were both walking like 90 year olds! 

Thought I’d have a bath to ease my aches and pains, forgot just how much the heat and humidity effects my MS! 

It was more like bathing in cement when I tried to move! 
Sooooooo, PJs are on! Hot water bottle on our backs & a takeaway ordered! 

All about balance! 

Meme shared via pinterest, words are my own

Whats happened to my concentration! 🤔

When ur MS isn’t behaving and you have very little concentration!
Yeah… so, this happened when I was creating today! 
Chopping veg to go in slow cooker when I saw this sad face! 😥🔪🍆🔪🍅🔪🌶🔪😥

Vix – 1       MS – 0

Food is cooking nicely, managed to get myself another healthy lunch as well!

I’d call that a win! 👏

Another UTI!

I’m not one to enjoy sitting around doing nothing! 

When you have MS and an infection, doing nothing really is the best we can do! 

What I really want to do though is go to my Yoga class as I normally do with Louise my Yoga teacher! 

MS effecting my speech…

​Another referral due to my MS! 

Its crazy how much of ‘you’ MS affects! 

My voice hasn’t sounded the same for around 4 years! 

Nothing major, I just constantly sound as though I have a cold! 
The most annoying thing now is the amount of times I get asked to repeat myself! 

I can’t tell what volume I should be using so can occasionally speak very loud!

The worst is when my voice becomes a whisper and I slurr my words! 

All because MS has affected my swallow! 

When I used to get asked if my swallow was okay at routine check ups, I always thought the consultant meant ‘do I choke often’ 

Answer: “occasionally”
I never linked the question to the problems I have with my voice! And yet it makes total sense! 

Doh!!! 👅😝 

Making a down day happier…

​Having a pretty shitty day today tbh, so fatigued its unreal! Every day lately seems like I have to push myself harder, just to move my body and that’s without actually thinking about what I want my body to do! That takes even more effort! Long gone are those days that I can do things without thinking!
Right now, MS sucks but guess what, I was looking through my pictures on my phone, to find something that reflects my current mood…
That’s when I saw this photo and everything changed! 

This photo was taken last Sunday when I yes me, drove the furthest I have ever driven (90 miles to South Yorkshire) to see my MS sister & the rest of our faaaamily! Of course I had my DebbieRahRah as SatDeb & navigator. What makes me feel more proud, was that I drove without feeling nervous!
This beautiful lady is my Kindred Spirit, she has helped me through my MS more than she’ll take credit for! I only need to see her smiley face and my mood lifts! 

Thank you Sarah Hickman for making my day cheerier! 

(And I know exactly what she’s saying when she reads this… Either “oh behave” or “stoppppp”)

🙊😂💋💖💞