Paingry – when your in so much pain you feel angry!

What to do when your Paingry – when your in so much pain you feel angry!

I want to scream so loud my throat hurts, I want to cry so much that I run out of tears!
Crying makes me angry, I try not to cry! I don’t like to feel angry! I’ve felt enough anger in my teenage years, I don’t want to feel like that again!
I need to get this feeling out of me!

It hurts so much to move though, every twist or turn of my body. Every step I take, one step out, leaning forward on that leg before I put my next leg down. The pain that shoots from my back, into my bottom and down my leg. Repeat that motion as I take one more step, the same pain on the other side now!

It’s too much, I need my appointment! Please let me have my appointment date in the post tomorrow! It’s been 2 weeks, I need that appointment!

I’m angry, this pain makes me angry! I’ve done nothing wrong to deserve this!

I don’t want to be angry! I need to let it out! I need to go to Fight Klub!

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What’s that? You think I can’t do Fight Klub because I’m disabled!
Think again! No boundaries!

Adrenalin takes over, the pain is forgotten, I punch the bag! 👊 💥

In this time I know not of this disease inside me that no one can see.
I feel like I’m free!
Don’t stop me!

I need water, pour it over me
I’m too hot, I can’t see
So this is what happens when I want to feel free!
This is what I put my body through just to be me!


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She’s a Whirlwind

Just gotta totes love my amazing friend & pilates instructor, Hannah Bailey. Did I mention she’s my ‘Fight Klub’ instructor too!

Photo took last night as she arrived for Fight Klub after she’d just taught ‘Clubbercise’ What a combo!
Yesterday she went from teaching adults with learning difficulties to aqua to pilates to clubbercise to the next class, ‘FIGHT CLUB’
She’s awesome, she’s mean! 👊💥
Then after class, she’s the wonderful Hannah!
Somewhere in all that madness she’s also a Specialist in pregnancy and sports massage! You just can’t imagine it can u!

5 years ago I would never have thought that I would be living this life with these friends and loving it!
I always loved different sports and activities but then MS and life stopped that!
MS will not stop me living my life any longer! Even if it means changing what I do, which I have and do you know what, it’s amazing!

It’s friends like Hannah that inspire me & give me my energy!
Everyone needs a Hannah! 😄

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Fight Klub round 0 = proud Vix! #blog

How flipping proud & immensely annoyed do I feel right now that I’m not going to Fight Klub!

DebbieRahRah is still going which I’m really pleased about & also she won’t be alone as one of our close friends Adam is also go with her!

It’s Adams first time at fight klub so this is for him…

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*Proud because I’m letting my body rest after my Tysabri infusion
#bekindtoyourself
*Annoyed because MS can get in the way of so many things it’s just so gawd damn unfair!!!
#mssucks

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Just love he human body & how amazing it is….

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