Spot the cheat! It took me a while! Tee hee hee
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Tuesday was my first day back to the workout I love so much, the one I am most passionate about, Pilates*
*Pilates aims to strengthen the body in an even way, with particular emphasis on core strength to improve general fitness and wellbeing.
It has been 6 weeks since I noticed my legs were much weaker than normal, since I went numb from my torso down to my feet, since my balance disappeared and I started walking with my feet wider apart making it a little easier to stay upright.
It has been 4 weeks since I saw my GP and was prescribed Steroids for a possible relapse!
It has been 3 weeks since I had an appointment with the Neurologist that was so rude to me and made me cry! The Neurologist that told me I’ll be feeling better in the spring, that I don’t have Drop Foot even though my Neuro Physiotherapist referred me to be assessed for FES (Functional electrical stimulation *FES* is a treatment that uses the application of small electrical charges to improve mobility. It is particularly used as a treatment for foot drop.) He told me I don’t need the ‘Foot-ups’ or also known as ‘ankle splints’ that my Neuro Physio gave me. I have been told to use these on both legs all the time to help with my ‘drop foot’, because if I don’t I trip and fall! Yeah, I’m to throw those in the bin! And he said I don’t need the 2 crutches I was using that day (because the steroids I was taking make me feel weak!) His reply was that steroids don’t make you weak they make you strong and that is why athletes take them!
Now I understand that not everyone will know this but, from experience of taking steroids and understanding them in great detail I am aware that there are different types of ‘steroids’ and they are used for different things!
It doesn’t take a degree to work out which ones are taken by athletes to make them perform better!
Looking at the huge list of side effects that come with Corticosteroids (the type of steroids I was prescribed by my GP) Methylprednisolone in particular, you will notice it states that Muscle weakness is one of them!
All that information on Steroids is found here What is the difference between Corticosteroids and Anabolic steroids?
I was told that I didn’t have a relapse which is fantastic news! If I had then they would have taken me off my monthly drug ‘Tysabri’ that helps to stop relapses. I’m so grateful that my MS team are happy for me to stay on Tysabri! I’ve been on it for 3 years now and in that time this last ‘flare up’ has been the closest I’ve felt to relapsing. Before Tysabri I was relapsing every month so I’d rather stay on it!
There’s always a first for everything! For the first time I actually gave myself time to recover from my flare up, I didn’t go to a Pilates class until I felt completely ready! I didn’t think it would be as long as six weeks though! Another first is that I am taking it steady as well, I’m not going to over do it because my body isn’t what it used to be. It’s the only one I have and I need to take care of it!
Tuesday was my first day back to a Pilates class, it was so much harder than I remember which is proof that I do need to take it steady. It was amazing and yet frustrating at the same time. One thing that isn’t a first for me is ‘beating my self up’ I get so annoyed with myself when I can’t do all the stretches properly. The new Pilates instructor Lisa Perry kept telling me how well I was doing. I took the compliment and had a little chat with myself, I have nothing to prove to anyone, not even myself! For someone of my limited mobility I’m doing pretty amazing! That feeling after when my muscles had woken up was brilliant. Lisa’s classes are such good fun. The stretches she teaches are great, I’m sure she adds in a few Yoga posses which are hard but feel incredible! I’d like to learn Yoga but definitely one thing at a time!
Yesterday was my second time back at Pilates, a different type of class with Hannah Bailey. Fantastic! Hannah’s energy is amazing, she puts every ounce of it into her classes and really pushes you to reach your ultimate! Her classes are fast, she qualified to teach PiYo* earlier this year, I’m sure she is throwing in a few PiYo exercises into the Pilates class. If she is then I’m up for it but I must take it steady!
*PiYo combines the muscle-sculpting, core-firming benefits of Pilates with the strength and flexibility advantages of yoga. Piyo cranks up the speed to deliver a true fat-burning, low-impact workout that leaves your body looking long, lean, and incredibly defined.

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This is the week I’m going to make all the difference!
Remember it’s not ‘why me’ it’s ‘TRY ME!’
My alarm is set for gym o’clock! #thisgirlcan
Best thing I’ve ever done and believe me it still isn’t easy! I make myself look at me in a mirror 3 times a week! Why? Because I love pilates!
This is so true!…
Had enough of what I saw in that mirror!
No stopping me now until I like what I see again!
#ishapeme
If you can’t stop thinking about it, don’t stop reaching for it and I don’t mean the biscuit tin! 😂
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I haven’t posted anything on my blog for a while, for those that follow it I am not giving in with it.
I am having a little confidence knock which I believe to be a part of my anxiety/depression & my MS.
It is becoming increasingly harder for me to cope with a lot of technology and so I am trying to have a cut back & a ‘low tech’ time!
This is proof that even us happy, cheery people aren’t always what they seem on the outside!
This is my #invisiblefight to get me back!
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Happy funtastic Friday peeps! This is where it begins!
TODAY
•Back to basics Pilates class with Kate King = Love!
•Collecting MegaSpecial Sistaaah Sarah Hickman & nephew Lewis from train station = More love
•Rugby World Cup starts = Happy
•England v Fiji = Adrenalin
TOMORROW
•Shelley’s family fun day at The Weavers Arms, Fillongley in aid of MS-UK = FUN
•Me in the stocks at the event = Arghhhh
•A group of MegaSpecials (MSrs) all meeting together at event = Amazing & dream come true!
•Adam’s 35th birthday party in evening = Shattered me, Sare & Sista Rosemary plus more fun!
SUNDAY
•Recover! 😜
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Have u ever heard that saying, ‘proud as punch’ well that’s how u feel right now!
Proud of all my friends that made up team BAM4MSUK because we have been chosen as fundraiser of the month for doing so well in the ‘Color Run’
http://www.ms-uk.org/fotm
I know it says my name but it was a team effort! We did it guys! Same next year!?
Click on the link to read my story & stay tuned as I’ll be sharing more about it soon! 😄 🌈
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Oh my days! This was my post, this day FOUR years ago! Counting down to the firewalk fundraiser we organised for the MS Trust!
I never thought that night would have such a massive hit! All I wanted to do was prove to myself ‘if I can walk on fire then I can be stronger than MS’
I didn’t realise then what an amazing journey I was about to go on in rediscovering myself!
It’s taken along time but I think I’m finally at a place in my life that seemed so unreachable so many times!
I know there will be difficult times ahead, this is my life & I have MS! I’m in such a better head space now than I ever was before! As long as I stay this way, this focused then I hope I can handle anything thrown my way!
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#MyInvisibleFight #invisibleillness #invisiblefight #iiwk15
*THIS IS IN NO WAY A ‘PITY PLEA’ AND I’M NOT BEING NEGATIVE, I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO BE AWARE OF HOW HARD IT CAN BE FOR PEOPLE WITH INVISIBLE ILLNESSES*
After seeing the post on Facebook (shown above) I have decided I shall take part & so every time I see a photo opportunity of #MyInvisibleFight I shall post the picture on instagram & here on my blog site which will then share to Facebook & twitter!
If you know me, are close to me & think this will be too upsetting for you then please stop reading now.
My intention isn’t to upset people, nor is it to make people feel sorry for me or others with Invisible illnesses. We don’t need a ‘Pity party’ we just want people to understand & realise how hard it can be for us! How incredible we are! How strong we have to be!
To be honest, this is quite a good ‘pick me up’ for me as I often forget the challenges I have & still do overcome!
My 3rd picture is so terribly boring! No no no, not the picture! The picture isn’t boring, it shows boredom!
Everybody at some point experiences boredom but I suspect it’s short lived? What if you experienced boredom everyday.
What if you were looking forward to the weekend, only to find out you when you wake in the morning any plans you had that day would have to be cancelled! That’s right, cancelled!
I didn’t have many plans for today, Saturdays are usually my days off from exercise especially when my partner is off work so that wasn’t a problem for me, what was a problem was my pain levels! Far too high!
It was then that I was asked if I wanted to go clothes shopping! Seriously! But we went shopping last night, I hadn’t anticipated going today as well!
That was it, left home alone! I can’t stop my partner from doing things because I can’t go! I bet it’s as hard for her to go alone as it is for me to say ‘I can’t go’
The fear then is not knowing how long I’ll be cancelling plans for! Is this going to pass soon? Temporary, it’s only temporary? Please let it only be temporary! Oh man, I’m bored already!
‘Ping’ goes my phone, I reach for my phone & smile! This is when the fashion show begins, yey! I have always love clothes shopping so this was perfect, I didn’t feel as though I was missing out at all!
I’m very lucky in that I have wonderful friends who I get to chat with most days via the wonderful world of technology that we live in today!
That wasn’t the case for me 5 years ago when I was suffering badly from acute Multiple sclerosis relapses. At this point I didn’t have the amazing network of friends that I have now! I didn’t have the knowledge or the understanding of my 2 illnesses (Multiple Sclerosis – MS & Fibromyalgia) as I do now & I certainly didn’t have the ability to say ‘you go, I should really stay here’ What I did have was a lot more days when I had no choice but to stay in bed because I didn’t ‘look after me’ and because I didn’t have all my Internet friends I had a tremendous amount of boredom!
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#MyInvisibleFight #invisibleillness #invisiblefight #iiwk15
*THIS IS IN NO WAY A ‘PITY PLEA’ I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO BE AWARE OF HOW HARD IT CAN BE FOR PEOPLE WITH INVISIBLE ILLNESSES*
After seeing the post on Facebook (shown above) I have decided I shall take part & so every time I see a photo opportunity of #MyInvisibleFight I shall post the picture on instagram & here on my blog site which will then share to Facebook & twitter!
If you know me, are close to me & think this will be too upsetting for you then stop reading now.
My intention isn’t to upset people, nor is it to make people feel sorry for me or others with Invisible illnesses. We don’t need a ‘Pity party’ we just want people to understand & realise how hard it can be for us! How incredible we are! How strong we have to be!
To be honest, this is quite a good ‘pick me up’ for me as I often forget the challenges I have & still do overcome!
My 2nd photo is something as simple as opening the post!
I love to receive mail! I no longer get bills in the post, come on people, we’re in the age of technology! Everything is now email, text, apps, this is our world!
“Your EE bill is now ready for you to view online”
“Your E Newsletter is now ready to be viewed online“
“Your now due your next eye examination “
How exciting is it to hear the letter box rattle, knowing that someone somewhere has thought of you! Either that or its a flyer from the local takeaway! No thank you! We don’t want those here!
Off I go to collect my mail, I sit down with whatever hot drink I’m partial to that day, post on the table in front of me & then I remember!
Oh no, my hands aren’t working today! I can’t keep a tight grip of the letter & coordinate my other hand to work at the same time! Oh, oh…. no! I’ve torn it! I hope it’s still readable!
Yes there is such a thing as ‘letter openers’ I’m just not sure it’s a good thing on days like these for me to be holding something with a pointy end!
Imagine, gawd forbid if I ended up at A&E with a puncture wound somewhere on my body & having to explain to the nurse how I did it! I’m sure they’ve heard worse!
“It was because of the letter & a letter opener, actually nurse, the letter opener is still in my tummy”
Now please don’t stop sending me good old fashioned snail mail because I may not open it to perfection, where there’s a will there’s a way!
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#MyInvisibleFight #invisibleillness #invisiblefight #iiwk15
*THIS IS IN NO WAY A ‘PITY PLEA’ AND I’M NOT BEING NEGATIVE, I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO BE AWARE OF HOW HARD IT CAN BE FOR PEOPLE WITH INVISIBLE ILLNESSES*
After seeing the post on Facebook (shown above) I have decided I shall take part & so every time I see a photo opportunity of #MyInvisibleFight I shall post the picture on instagram & here on my blog site which will then share to Facebook & twitter!
If you know me, are close to me & think this will be too upsetting for you then stop reading now.
My intention isn’t to upset people, nor is it to make people feel sorry for me or others with Invisible illnesses. We don’t need a ‘Pity party’ we just want people to understand & realise how hard it can be for us! How incredible we are! How strong we have to be!
To be honest, this is quite a good ‘pick me up’ for me as I often forget the challenges I have & still do overcome!
My first photo is about Pain! We have all felt pain at some point in our lives but most have the pleasure, yes pleasure of that pain being short lived! Have you ever seen pain?
This is the first of #MyInvisibleFight I am never pain free! Some days I ‘cope’ with the pain better than others but that doesn’t mean I’m in less pain! The pain is still the same, it still grinds me down. Like I said, the difference is how I cope with it!
I wake up, I hurt! I need to move, how much will it hurt me to swing my legs out of the bed & sit myself on the edge?
I have to do it, deep breath!
Yeah that hurts! My whole body! Is this what it feels like to have full blown flu? No, it’s worse!
Okay so I’m up & I’m ready
I’m still in as much pain if not more from all of the moving around I’ve been doing but now I’m really focused! It’s time for Pilates! #addict!
It doesn’t end there, when my partner is home from work we then go to the gym for a 30 minute workout!
My pain eases when I exercise! I push myself everyday to do these things because I know that whilst I’m doing them my pain decreases about 10% and afterwards for about 3/4 hours I’m in 50% less pain!
That might not seem much but you tell me when u suffer with chronic pain all day every day if it is worth the push!
The picture below shows it is! Pic to the left was last year…Before pilates, pic to the right was yesterday, 7 months at pilates