Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

I just want to love what I do!

There’s a reason why I’m so keen to get fitter! 

Feeling pissed off that my body won’t let me! 

How can I get on and enjoy my hobbies, aka yoga, Pilates, weights, when its so physically hard to move my body! 

Meme shared via pinterest, words are my own

Patience Victoria!

I keep coming back to this #quote.

Today didn’t turn out quite how I thought it was going to, that’s not a bad thing though, because I have still learnt from it!

I am where I am meant to be right now! 

I realise now that it would be unfair for the next part of my Pilates journey to be through someone else’s misfortune.

If I want to teach, or get the experience, I have to do it by myself! πŸ€”

Meme shared via Pinterest, words are my own

How do I stay positive?

“When people ask me why am I so positive, I simply reply why not?” – Vix Edwards

  • I try to lift weights once a week
  • I try to practice Pilates 3 times a week
  • I try to practice Yoga almost everyday

I also have ms every single day but i don’t have to try with that one!
MS isn’t easy, there’s something different every day, but this doesn’t stop me living my life the fullest that I can!
I do my best to stay positive, which is where my exercise comes into play. 

Negativity is soul draining and exceptionally hard for me to get out of when it has me! I should imagine this is the same for anyone that has ever had a low mood day!
Imagine a tree, at the top of it is where the positivity is & this is where I aim to start my day! 

Lets say I wake up and its a beautiful day, sun shining, birds are singing, and I’m at the highest point of my positivity.

I sit up in bed and as I move my legs, my right leg is a little stiff. Hmm, that’s ok, I can handle that, except for when I start to walk out of the bedroom and I have to drag my leg, this knocks me down in my positivity.

So now, I’m no longer at the top of the tree. Now I’m on the branch below where I started, but thats ok, because I was at the top when I started my day, I am still closer to being at my most positive than my most negative & because I try to always see the positive in things, I should be able to get back to the top fairly quickly.
Remember though, I said this isn’t easy! Sometimes we come across things in life that will test us, sometimes we think we are going to break and never be the same person ever again. I’ve been there! Not just with my health, so I know how hard positivity can be, I’m not the same person, no, I use these experience’s as lessons and I grow from them!

When there’s only 2 choice’s, positivity & negaticity, I know which one I’d rather make! 

“Train your mind to see the good in everything. Positivity is a choice. The happiness of your life depends on your thoughts.” – Marcandangel 

Photo is by myself as are the words!

All the yums!

All the yums! πŸ½πŸ…πŸ†πŸŒ½πŸŒΆπŸ„
The difference in my lunch choice when I don’t go to Yoga, Pilates classes in the morning is immense! 

My fatigue is still bad but far less than when I’ve exercised! 

I can think a little clearer & listen to my body, so I can make better choices of what to have & what my body wants! 
I know its appears to be a simple salad, but nothing is simple when you have 2 chronic illnesses! 

I could have had some mixed beans with my salad but unfortunately, I have only just remembered them & my lunch is now in my tummy! πŸ€—
This lunch is nothing compared to when my DebbieRahRah is here, but it makes me proud to know that I created it on my own! 
πŸ’šπŸ’šπŸ’š

Photo is my own as is the writing

 

If you could #write to yourself from the #future, what would you say?

*SEE 2014 MEMORY FIRST*
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If you could write to yourself from the future, what would you say?

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And what a phenomenal journey it is! Loving every step, wobble, hobble and roll of it! 
Its strange how things work out, at the time of writing this post 3 years ago, I had no idea how amazing my life was going to be! 
I would never have believed you if you told me all the incredible things that I have had the pleasure to be involved in! 
I wouldn’t have believed you if you told me I would be extremely good friends with Gold winning Paralympian Stephanie Millward  and I wouldn’t believe u if u told me I was also fantastic friends with the truly inspirational Trishna Gauri

In fact, your friends with some absolutely freaking awesome people, some you’ve known all your life, some that feel like you’ve known all your life & some your still getting to know! 

Vix, your network of friends are incredible!
And if you think I’d have believed that I would be working together with one of my best friends who just happens to be my Pilates instructor, yeah, 2014 Vix, in about a years time you start Kate King Pilates classes, and your passion is born! 
You then, two years later help said Pilates instructor, who by the way becomes a massive inspiration, to build her business and I do believe you appear to be quite successful at it! 

Oh and 2014 Vix, would you believe this, you start a Pilates teaching course! Not with the intention of teaching, but just because you want to! 
Oh and you also fall in love with Yoga as well!

Thanks to your beautiful yoga teacher with the amazing energy
Yeah, just think about that!

Picture is my own as are the words!