Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

I just want to love what I do!

There’s a reason why I’m so keen to get fitter! 

Feeling pissed off that my body won’t let me! 

How can I get on and enjoy my hobbies, aka yoga, Pilates, weights, when its so physically hard to move my body! 

Meme shared via pinterest, words are my own

Another infection! Enough is enough!

Only 2 weeks since I was prescribed antibiotics for yet another UTI and today I have more for yet another water infection! This is getting silly! 
I’m definitely adding cinnamon to my shopping order! 
🚾🚰

Happiness is…

A moment in the garden tidying & now were both walking like 90 year olds! 

Thought I’d have a bath to ease my aches and pains, forgot just how much the heat and humidity effects my MS! 

It was more like bathing in cement when I tried to move! 
Sooooooo, PJs are on! Hot water bottle on our backs & a takeaway ordered! 

All about balance! 

Meme shared via pinterest, words are my own

How do I stay positive?

“When people ask me why am I so positive, I simply reply why not?” – Vix Edwards

  • I try to lift weights once a week
  • I try to practice Pilates 3 times a week
  • I try to practice Yoga almost everyday

I also have ms every single day but i don’t have to try with that one!
MS isn’t easy, there’s something different every day, but this doesn’t stop me living my life the fullest that I can!
I do my best to stay positive, which is where my exercise comes into play. 

Negativity is soul draining and exceptionally hard for me to get out of when it has me! I should imagine this is the same for anyone that has ever had a low mood day!
Imagine a tree, at the top of it is where the positivity is & this is where I aim to start my day! 

Lets say I wake up and its a beautiful day, sun shining, birds are singing, and I’m at the highest point of my positivity.

I sit up in bed and as I move my legs, my right leg is a little stiff. Hmm, that’s ok, I can handle that, except for when I start to walk out of the bedroom and I have to drag my leg, this knocks me down in my positivity.

So now, I’m no longer at the top of the tree. Now I’m on the branch below where I started, but thats ok, because I was at the top when I started my day, I am still closer to being at my most positive than my most negative & because I try to always see the positive in things, I should be able to get back to the top fairly quickly.
Remember though, I said this isn’t easy! Sometimes we come across things in life that will test us, sometimes we think we are going to break and never be the same person ever again. I’ve been there! Not just with my health, so I know how hard positivity can be, I’m not the same person, no, I use these experience’s as lessons and I grow from them!

When there’s only 2 choice’s, positivity & negaticity, I know which one I’d rather make! 

“Train your mind to see the good in everything. Positivity is a choice. The happiness of your life depends on your thoughts.” – Marcandangel 

Photo is by myself as are the words!

Whats happened to my concentration! πŸ€”

When ur MS isn’t behaving and you have very little concentration!
Yeah… so, this happened when I was creating today! 
Chopping veg to go in slow cooker when I saw this sad face! πŸ˜₯πŸ”ͺπŸ†πŸ”ͺπŸ…πŸ”ͺ🌢πŸ”ͺπŸ˜₯

Vix – 1       MS – 0

Food is cooking nicely, managed to get myself another healthy lunch as well!

I’d call that a win! πŸ‘

Another UTI!

I’m not one to enjoy sitting around doing nothing! 

When you have MS and an infection, doing nothing really is the best we can do! 

What I really want to do though is go to my Yoga class as I normally do with Louise my Yoga teacher! 

MS effecting my speech…

​Another referral due to my MS! 

Its crazy how much of ‘you’ MS affects! 

My voice hasn’t sounded the same for around 4 years! 

Nothing major, I just constantly sound as though I have a cold! 
The most annoying thing now is the amount of times I get asked to repeat myself! 

I can’t tell what volume I should be using so can occasionally speak very loud!

The worst is when my voice becomes a whisper and I slurr my words! 

All because MS has affected my swallow! 

When I used to get asked if my swallow was okay at routine check ups, I always thought the consultant meant ‘do I choke often’ 

Answer: “occasionally”
I never linked the question to the problems I have with my voice! And yet it makes total sense! 

Doh!!! πŸ‘…πŸ˜