Laughter not tears

Didn’t want to go out, but I had to! 

Was comfy in my pyjamas, but had to go to the chemist.
I made the effort, I had a wash, got dressed, brushed my teeth, brushed my hair, attempted to put socks & shoes on, just about managed! 
Drove past the chemist, open, good! 

Parked the car, stumbled out of car, walked around the corner…….
THE SHUTTER HAD JUST LOWERED, THEY WERE CLOSED FOR LUNCH! AN HOUR!
Oh how I laughed! 

And returned an hour later! 

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Todays flare comes from my MS, in the form of TREMORS!Β 

Shake it baby! 

My body has an internal tremor today and my head is going for it too! 

Not the nicest but a good reason to be a sofa surfer! 

Something I always found hard to do, but not anymore! 

The trick is, listening to your body, a way that my body tells me it needs rest, is a flare of my symptoms. 

Today’s flare is from my MS and I have Tremors! 

Yesterday it was quite possibly my Fibromyalgia with extreme pain (hard for me to tell fibro pain from MS pain)
I understand everyone leads busy lives in different ways, and it is extremely hard for people to find the time to just stop, to rest, to breathe. 

BUT, we have one body for our lifetime!
Preach over! πŸ™ŠπŸ‘ŒπŸ’― 

Staying true to myself!

This past 18 months, I have been working really hard, on becoming my true authentic self. 
I am so much happier in my life now, except when it comes to handling my chronic pain levels!
I don’t like to be truthful about this part of me because I don’t want people to ever think I am after a pity party, I’m not! 

I don’t want people to be sad for me! 


But how can I be authentic if this is a part of me that I don’t share completely! 

So here goes… I have quite honestly never felt pain like this coming from my sacroiliac joint, hips, spine, legs, piriformis muscle and my feet! 

Tonight I broke! I couldn’t stop the tears! 

I am quiet certain this isn’t MS, maybe it is part of my fibromyalgia, maybe its just an old injury that’s never been looked into properly? 

Just like in my health coaching programme I did, maybe this is somewhere that has never been approached completely?
In yoga, they say we hold alot of our emotion in different areas of our bodies. Ok, some of you must have heard of stress being held in your shoulders? Well, that’s exactly what I’m talking about! 

What if the manifestation of chronic pain is  being caused by an unresolved emotional issue?

It has been said that there is a distinct connection between emotions and injuries.

A fall from being pushed in a malicious way will manifest in the body differently than a fall from an accidental trip on a very peaceful, carefree day.
Doesn’t that make you think! 

What ever it is, I’d like it fixed & my life back now… Pain free!

I love my body because….

Day 4 of Mel Wells ‘self love week’ 

Today we had to finish this: “I love my body because…”


There was a time in my life when I ‘thought’ I loved my body. 

Recently I uncovered that what I thought was loving my body, was actually denying it the care and respect she truly deserved! 
In reality, I liked being the size that I was. That was it! I didn’t listen to my body!

⏩ Fast forward 8 years, a diagnosis of MS (Multiple sclerosis) & Fibromyalgia. 

🚢>β™Ώ Then the transition from the love of walking/hiking to adopting walking sticks, crutches, a wheelchair & the funkiest mobility scooter ever! And everything has changed, for the better!… I am happier now than I thought possible!

πŸ’š I was so lucky at the end of last year, continuing this year, to be a case study for my friend & yoga teacher Louise Aviles whilst she studied for her Health coaching qualification. (find Louise on Instagram: @louiseavilesyoga)



During this time, I learnt what loving my body really means! I learnt that having a thin waist, and being a size 10 isn’t actually the ONLY reasons to love your body! 

When I questioned my habits that I had when I was 6 dress sizes smaller, they definitely weren’t those that someone would have if they truly loved their amazing body


So… Why do I love my body? Haven’t you paid attention? She’s amazing! 

Everything that I’ve put her through! I haven’t been the kindest to her over the 36 years we’ve been together! 
She’s been starved, I’ve force fed her, self harmed, pushed her beyond capability, ignored her when she’s been screaming at me & she’s given me nothing but unconditional love in return!
She has enough to deal with because of how my MS affects her, so I learned new behaviours, new habits. And now I do my best to show her daily how much I love her! 

All the areas that I used to be negative about on a daily basis, I now focus on telling her why I love them!
I LOVE…
πŸ’ͺ – My shoulders: they’re strong & able to help carry my body using crutches when my legs are to tired.
πŸ™† – My upper arms: they have the strength to enable me to enjoy different exercises


πŸ™ – My wrists: they’re strong for my Yoga & Pilates practice

πŸ‘± – My beautiful face: its unique to me!
πŸ‘™ – My chest: its where the most loyal part of me lives, my heart!

πŸ™‹ – My skin: keeps me together, stretch’s, twists & turns when needed!

πŸ˜† – My smile: it always tells the truth!

γ€° – My stretch marks: they are the marks of my amazing and beautiful journey of my life!

I ❀ ALL OF ME BECAUSE EVERY PART OF ME HAS A STORY TO TELL! 

Thank you for reading this part of my wonderful journey! 
Love yourself for everything that you are, never for what someone thinks you should be! πŸ™

Love yourself, all of yourself!Β 

If someone loves you for ALL that you are, why shouldn’t you love ALL of yourself! 

We are made to believe that we should all look and behave a certain way, to be accepted in society. 

I have never been one to follow the crowd, or to be put in a box.

Yet for so many years, since the very young age of around 10 or 11 (when I started developing my extra parts that define me as a lady, my #babylons and child bearing #hips πŸ˜‰πŸ‘™) I was always made to feel like I was fat, my shoulders were too broad, my hips too wide & my #booty too big! 

It was children the same age as me that went to the same school, they were the ones doing the name calling! 

It has taken me until the age of 36 to realise how I have, for so many years, spoken to my body in such a cruel way! I have spoken to her the same as all the children that called me fat at school! How sad is that! 

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My body has for those 36 years treated me, with nothing but care and dignity! She’s showed up for me every time I’ve needed her, despite how badly I may have treated her at times! She’s always been there, curves and all! 

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They’re amazing thing these bodies of ours! Lets start treating them better! Stop speaking badly of yours next time you look in the mirror. Speak to her how you would to your most beautiful friend! 

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Meme shared via Pinterest, write up is my own, Vix

Mentally accepting my physical limits!

Worked hard today & I don’t mean physically!

Today has been more about mentally accepting my physical limits & not ignoring my body, when she tells me it’s time to stop. When she screams because she’s getting weak & hurting. 

Its hard to accept that your body can’t do the things it used to do. It’s also hard to remember not to get angry at myself!

The good news… today I managed it! 

Today was a great day so I’m enjoying a Gin & Ginger Ale! Cheers! πŸ˜‰ 

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I forgive you for all the heartache you put me through 18-19 years ago

When you’re directed to  the only free isle in the supermarket, you look up and see that the cashier is your ex! 

In that split second you make the choice to stay and start unpacking the trolley! 

She see’s you and flushes! That’s right Vix, you got this, just another person! 

Conversation starts as she packs your bag for you. You talk back in a normal tone, just pleasantries. Forgetting everything that happened in the past, I might have poor short term memory recall skills but my long-term memory is perfect!  
In my head I tell her I forgive her for everything! Because everything that happened 18-19 years ago, shaped who I am today and for that I am grateful​! 

Anyone that knows me from that time in my life, I’m sure you will remember my attitude towards the situation! 

So you will know how momentous this mornings events are! 
This confirms to me that my health coaching sessions are paying off and I am becoming a better version of myself! 

Thank you @louiseavilesyoga 

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All memes shared via Pinterest , all words are my own