I forgive you for all the heartache you put me through 18-19 years ago

When you’re directed to  the only free isle in the supermarket, you look up and see that the cashier is your ex! 

In that split second you make the choice to stay and start unpacking the trolley! 

She see’s you and flushes! That’s right Vix, you got this, just another person! 

Conversation starts as she packs your bag for you. You talk back in a normal tone, just pleasantries. Forgetting everything that happened in the past, I might have poor short term memory recall skills but my long-term memory is perfect!  
In my head I tell her I forgive her for everything! Because everything that happened 18-19 years ago, shaped who I am today and for that I am grateful​! 

Anyone that knows me from that time in my life, I’m sure you will remember my attitude towards the situation! 

So you will know how momentous this mornings events are! 
This confirms to me that my health coaching sessions are paying off and I am becoming a better version of myself! 

Thank you @louiseavilesyoga 

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All memes shared via Pinterest , all words are my own

Family weekend of quilt free fun!

What an amazing weekend! 

We ate what we wanted, drank what we wanted, took selfies with no make up on, laughed so much we might have pee’d a little and just basically had a flipping incredible time!

I don’t feel guilty about it, neither am I going to punish myself by not eating or exercising until I’ve worked off those extra calories, (frankly that would be impossible!) 
I may think about cutting back a little but it won’t be much different to what I ate/drank before! 

(She says with a cookie in her hand!… Hey its ok, its gluten free! πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‚)
Life is all about balance!

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Shared via instagram, words are my own

Realising I let the negativity in & being ok with that!

Last week I let myself listen to that inner negativity, which is ok to a certain degree, as long as you don’t hold on to it!
That’s where my lesson was! I held on and forgot about all the amazing, positive things in my life. I was being far to critical and hard on myself.

I am so grateful to all the wonderful people that are always there for me, the ones that have my back, the ones that glue me back together! 

I love you all unconditionally! 

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Meme shared via instagram, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

Meme from pinterest, words are my own

​Day 3 #7daysofselflove challenge:Β I love my body because…

​Day 3 #7daysofselflove challenge;
I love my body because…

She accepts the medication I have to have every 28 days, to keep my Multiple Sclerosis at bay! 
I love my body because…

She lets me do all these amazing things in the photos where I have raised money for different MS charities I support
I love my body because…

She accepts all the hard work I put her through and she doesn’t let me down!
I love my body because…

She’s where my beautiful soul lives
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Photos are all my own as are the words written

Day 1 of Mel Wells 7 day self love challenge

Ok so, its the first day of the #7daysofselflove with Mel Wells 

Today’s challenge is to share one thing that you love about yourself!
Before my MS diagnosis, I was in a really confident state of mind and felt comfortable saying “I love every part of my being”

Since then I’ve always felt uncomfortable saying I love any part of myself other than my smile and my soul! 
I understand that it’s okay to have self appreciation and self love, as I have been in that place before, but i find it hard now, 7 years later, to accept the change in myself, in my figure. 
The other hard thing for me today is to share this about myself so publicly!

I hate the thought of anyone feeling sad for me, so things like this I would rather keep between myself and close friends! 

*this is not a pity post, this is my journey to self love*
I’m always up for a challenge though, to prove to myself that I’m working on being a better version of myself! 
The other thing you will notice is there is no picture of me, just my very raw, messy handwriting! 

The picture is from one of my actions I had to do for my health coach session with Louise.

‘Write a letter from your future self’ 

I hope it will all make sense when you read it/if you can read it! 
I didn’t want to re-write it and pretty it up because, that just wouldn’t be the right thing to do!


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Picture is my own, words are my own