Tag: #lovehate

Journaling

#journaling 

This is something I have told myself I should do for a very long time. I don’t know why I hadn’t started this sooner!

Yesterday I started writing in my journal after attending a yoga class I hadn’t been to for a while. 
I’ve always had a lovehate relationship with yoga, mainly because I let my ego in. Expecting to be able to do all the poses anyone else can do, whilst forgetting that everyone is at different levels of ability and I have the added difficulty with my MS. 

Because of my MS it means moving my legs in particular is very hard and slow! The more I repeat the exercise the more my muscles fatigue and the slower I get! 

At this point yesterday I started to allow the #negativity in and then the self doubt. “I can’t do this” “I can’t do that” That’s when the tears roll and I know there’s no turning back. Negativity has hold of me! 
I’m so grateful for my beautiful Yoga teacher & healthcoach @louiseavilesyoga I couldn’t need her in my life more than I do now!

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Frustration overload continued…

​This may seem a contradiction to last nights post but, it has been planned for a while, I’m off to a new (to me) yoga class with my yoga bestie! 

I won’t stop my yoga practice, I just won’t be attending classes for a while (after today!)

This means I’ll have to mentally work harder to make sure I do continue with my own practice! I’m sure you can imagine, how much easier it is to sit on the sofa, rather than rolling out your mat! 

I’m not quitting, its not my nature, I’m just listening to my body and preserving my emotional state! 

MS anxiety & depression is so hard to stay on top of! 

🙏

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