I miss my friends

I recently wrote a post on a Facebook page, that I haven’t visited for a very long time!…

So, I used to come here a lot. A day wouldn’t go by without me posting!
So grateful to this page and every one involved for helping me through my tough times!

I had to cut out such a lot of social media because it is far to tiring for me. My fatigue is so hard to handle and social media is top of the list for making it worse!

Trouble is, I feel as though I’ve totally isolated myself because of it and by complete accident!

Going from someone who has such a lot of friends to someone that never hears from them is so hard!

This isn’t a pitty plea and I don’t even know if I should post this or not, but if I’m right, this is a safe space?

I feel so alone, in a world where there are so many people, I feel alone!
I have a beautiful wife, and carers that come every day to help me/us and I still feel alone.

I know how lucky I am, because I do see people. But if I didnt pay for them, how much contact would I have from people other than my wife who I love dearly!

Does anyone else feel like this?

Its ok not to be okay!

Its ok not to be 100% 

Its ok not to be any%

Just as long as you remember 

You are doing your best

And are making the best choices

For yourself in this moment!
Oh and of course, you are magical as f**k!
I don’t know if it was naive of me, but I really didn’t expect that this beautiful tattoo, could take such a lot out of me! 

Maybe its not just the tattoo! 

Having yet another bladder infection probably has a lot to do with it! 

You just don’t expect to have to take so much into consideration when it comes to having MS and Fibromyalgia! 

Taking it easy and trying my best not to feel guilty about it! ✨✨✨

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Frustration overload continued…

​This may seem a contradiction to last nights post but, it has been planned for a while, I’m off to a new (to me) yoga class with my yoga bestie! 

I won’t stop my yoga practice, I just won’t be attending classes for a while (after today!)

This means I’ll have to mentally work harder to make sure I do continue with my own practice! I’m sure you can imagine, how much easier it is to sit on the sofa, rather than rolling out your mat! 

I’m not quitting, its not my nature, I’m just listening to my body and preserving my emotional state! 

MS anxiety & depression is so hard to stay on top of! 

🙏

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Frustration overload

​This is so true! 

But the sadness in me is too much for me to bear.

There are so many reasons why I have loved attending yoga classes. 

But there are more reasons why I have to stop attending them! 

I do know this, I can’t continue to feel the way I do whilst participating in classes and after.
I won’t stop my own practice, I hope I have the strength to continue it anyway! Only time will tell. 

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Body image struggles

​Sometimes you just gotta get down on your mat! 
My head, my thoughts are in a funny place at the moment, I’m doing my best to stay with my Yoga but its so hard! 
I’m having a lot of body image problems, for instance I wanted to see how I am with my downward-facing dog (Adho Mukha Shvanasana) progress, so did a video, really pleased with the left side of this picture but extremely dislike the right! (Hate is a strong word but…) And its not because I can’t straighten my legs or flatten my feet. 
I know why I’ve started feeling like this again. That’s part of the battle when you don’t know why your thoughts have changed so much after doing so well.
A bump in my road, well, more than a bump, loosing part of our family has literally took me backwards on my ‘better mind journey’ 
I’ll trust this journey for as long as I’m on it because I have never felt so determined!